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2016 Week Twenty Six: [screaming internally]


I’ve been having a lot of feelings this week and all of them are AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGHHHHH.


And honestly I’m boring MYSELF when I talk about why so I can only imagine how other people feel. It’s the same writing angst as always, just in a new flavour. This time I’ve got up to 20,000 words on the rewrite, which is good, but also most of those words are only contributing very indirectly to the plot, which is bad. And then I looked over the last draft and although there is a gaping plot hole (which is what I was trying to plug with the 20,000 words), a lot of it seems pretty good now that I haven’t looked at it for a while* and I’m realising that I possibly changed too much. So then I came up with a plan to try to minimise the bit of the plot with the hole in it so that it takes less plugging (this is difficult to explain without specifics but those would make this blog post very long and waily) and otherwise retain a lot of the good scenes.

Which feels good. But all the other “Ah, yes, this will fix everything!” ideas I’ve had about this story have felt good too. And also maybe the scenes that seemed good aren’t good and I’m a terrible writer and should just crawl into a hole and stay there forever?

My brain: 0/10 would abandon somewhere if physically possible to do so.

*The several very sensible people who told me to put it down and step away for a little while were all correct but somehow I couldn’t/can’t make myself listen.


(Sorry for all the yelling.)

I watched Jean Cocteau’s beautiful and frankly very weird La Belle et la Bête (Beauty and the Beast) the other day and live tweeted it. The full Storify is here but these are some of the highlights:

And if you like that you might like the post where I yelled about Cinderella.

That’s all for this week. I’m going to go and lie in a darkened room and think about my life choices.

Oh, PS: I spruced my blog’s design up a bit. You like?


2 thoughts on “2016 Week Twenty Six: [screaming internally]

  1. My brain: 0/10 would abandon somewhere if physically possible to do so. – I feel this way on a regular basis.

    Having a lie down in a darkened room is fine. Crawling into a hole and staying there forever is not.

    Spoiler alert: You’re not a terrible writer. You just have angst. *pushes loads of chocolate into the darkened room*


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